how long and how far again?

how a person can predict their life? and why life always leave the regret and sadness? friendship? relationship? partnership? family? i wish that i won't have so long life, at least the everything is enough for me to live till. how can we survive with colorful? when i was young i thinking that life always colorful because when u open your eyes everything is in front of we just need to follow the step only then we will always happy. i always meet a lot challenging stuff like start my own business. ask other to buy for me. promote here and there, will they buy the from me? are they buying form other? my price it's cheaper then other? can i support till the end?illegal way or legal way i choose? now i know why other pass away will called "Rest In Peace" no thinking, no afford, no pain, all suffer will bring and cover by the ground.